Before Summer Rain

Suddenly, from all the green around you,
something-you don't know what-has disappeared;
you feel it creeping closer to the window,
in total silence. From the nearby wood
you hear the urgent whistling of a plover,
reminding you of someone's Saint Jerome:
so much solitude and passion come
from that one voice, whose fierce request the downpour
will grant. The walls, with their ancient portraits, glide
away from us, cautiously, as though
they weren't supposed to hear what we are saying.
And reflected on the faded tapestries now;
the chill, uncertain sunlight of those long
childhood hours when you were so afraid.

Rainer Maria Rilke

Busy Busy!

Editing a million photos today of the baby shower I did a few weeks ago. Sigh. So much tedious work. Maybe I'll post some of my favorites in a bit. Oh how I wish I was lounging by the water in Provence, buying a bouquet of fresh lavender and making some bread. Hehe... Still waiting for a donation to my "Move to France" fund.

<3

Lovely Photos

The Summer of Mika!

So, it's official -- I'm a mess. As peppy pipsqueak, Christian Siriano might say, I'm a "hot tranny mess." Yes, really. So, you (and I) may ask, "Well, what are you going to do to fix your messy self???" I'm still working on it, but I figured I would share my rough, rough, super-rough draft of ideas. So without further ado, I present to you, the first, initial draft of The Summer of Mika (Plan)! Aww, do I hear clapping? *Blushes* (Ok, I'm going crazy...)

Summer of Mika Plan

*Walking in the mornings 4x+ per week at least 30 mins
*Yoga at least 4x per week for at least 30 mins
*Eat more whole foods
*Learn to meditate
*Cook at least 2 meals per week
*Eat meals at the counter with my boyfriend -- try to keep tv off
*Play on the Wii which cost tons of money 3x per week
*Read at least 3 news articles per day
*Save at least $20.00 per paycheck
*Have sex with my boyfriend at least 3x per week!
*Take 3 or more photos every day
*Write in blog daily -- even if it's just three sentences
*Edit Europe and wedding photos
*Make Europe photo book
*Try a modeling job
*Learn more about music
*Read and finish at least 1 book per month
*Write my pen pal a letter a week
*Get vintage clothes tailored
*Learn more about digital photography, film photography, flash, and photoshop
*Apply for scholarships
*See friends more often
*Worry less
*Laugh more
*Love openly and endlessly
*...More to come soon!

I'm currently obsessed with vintage dresses and "White Russians" with cherries on top, and have the money for neither.

Also, I wrote a long, thoughtful post about my blogging history and my computer froze and all my beautiful writing was deleted. It wasn't very witty anyway, and I would prefer that I appear always witty and amazing. Hah... if only.

So here it is! My first post. Ta Da! Now I must stop watching "Weeds" from my friend's netflix and go take a shower and try to be positive about going to work and not getting any.

Kisses!

My Blogging Past and An Introduction of Sorts

It often seems that every time there is a new change in my life, I start a new journal or blog. When I was in middle school, I started a journal to share with my best friend who I was somewhat in love with. I used it to keep in touch with him and other friends who I was forced to leave behind when I left for another school. The next year, I started a new journal in which I wrote about how tormented I was as a fourteen year old with social anxiety. I continued that journal into the next year where I first wrote about how tormented I was over still loving my best friend.That journal was close to abandoned the year after that since for the first time, I was in a relationship and was working. The summer after that year, I was finally officially with the man who I had been in love with for many years, and began college -- so naturally I needed a new journal. Three years later, here I am. Still in college, still with the man I love so much, and deciding that perhaps this journal will be a bit different. So, here we go! This journal will be my place for ideas, inspiration, crazy theories, stories, photos, love poems, and everything else I deem important. With that I say "hello," and your charmed, I'm sure.